I feel like right now, there is a big brick wall between me and where I want to be - or feel I should be. I've tried climbing it, running at it, and banging my head on it. But it doesn't want to budge. I've actually gotten a bit bruised lately with my attempts.
I'm a golfer - but think of this in terms of anything for which we set expectations.
When I play, I set in my mind a goal, a score, an expectation. I set out to reach and exceed that goal. I have high hopes at the beginning of each round. However, lately, I have been failing miserably. I just have come off three days of tournament play. I was horrible, beyond horrible - miserable, upset, and heading to give up land. Was I really that bad? Stacked up to my expectations - yes, horrible and hugely disappointing. Yet, when I take a step back (after I have licked my wounds) and I break it down - there were some really good things that happened. I made some clutch putts, I came through on a few holes that I really needed to, and I hit some good shots. Overall - ugly. Bits and chunks - there were some good moments. However, at the time - the bits and chunks were totally lost within the overall.
What are the small victories that I am going to focus on for my artwork? For the next month these are my goals - 1. play. I'm going to revisit some old techniques and focus on working on these and just playing with them and getting a feel for what I can do with them. I am not going to try and turn out anything that is "worthy" this next four weeks. Its all just play and techniques. 2. practice. Every day - something. I will draw, paint, sketch, whatever... every day - something. Even if I only have 15 or 20 minutes of spare time in day - I'm usin it for practice.
Anyone else want to join me in a month's worth of playtime? If you do, let me know and I'll figure out how to make that work. Happy Paint Party Friday everyone!! Can't wait to see what wonderful art is out there this week.