It's been just a little over a year ago that I started Encaustic (Wax) painting. Its been an interesting road and I have learned so much about the medium. But, my biggest takeaway for the year is how much I have learned about myself.
I like to pick a word that is my mantra for the year. Last year, my word was
I was wanting to learn.
I have actually surprised myself with the knowledge I gained in regard to painting:
- I've learned I love painting with wax - its magical for me
- I am not an abstract painter - not my deal at all
- I actually want to paint a painting of something with the wax
- I love love painting portraits and figures
- I love to work BIG
- I love putting words in my paintings - words are inspiring and thought provoking
- I love the more POP ART style because it makes it fun
Above is my most recent painting. She's BIG 24x24.
Below is where I started its 3x3
I started out with my inner critic running the show. Howling at me every day. Telling me that it was really ridiculous that I was trying this at all. I couldn't paint bigger than 3 inches square. I was totally petrified of the whole process. But, there was this little flicker inside that kept me at it. Kept me trying, kept me learning. I took some workshops and its a wonder that I could get through them at all. Afraid to be free and work there, I would just dabble and come home with knowledge in my brain but nothing tangible to show for it.
What I learned is that I can not for my life paint an abstract painting or put together a collage. The thought of being free and painting swirls and swishes and all that - NOPE, not my deal. Not at all.
But, I CAN paint a portrait. I'm not sure exactly how that came to me. I saw some portrait work in wax and for whatever reason, I wanted to try it. No rhyme or reason - but it works - its my deal. I still have a long way to go and lots to learn. However, I feel I am on the right track now
So, if your inner critic rules your creativeness - she can be quieted. She can take a back seat to what it is you are meant to do. Don't be discouraged. Kept going whatever direction feels right. Gain KNOWLEDGE, move forward, practice and think BIG.